I have been slowly starving

I have had three back injuries fairly close together, and my primary care doctor couldn't prescribe anything for the pain except for tramadol. So he referred me to the pain clinic and I saw the doctor there, i.e. the legal dope dealer, Who proceeded to tell me that he could help me and that he could prescribe a medication that would take care of the pain. So he prescribed me Percocet tens, gabapentin, gralise and other medication that he said would cure me. Yes, the pain medication helped my back, and I had an injection no two injections and some of the medication he gave me made me dizzy and nauseous and everything else. I just didn't feel good, so I decided to detox myself off all the medication, because my back was feeling better and I didn't feel that I needed it. But then the nausea started and it got more severe, I couldn't eat. I started losing 6 to 8 pounds a week and I was looking skeletal. And I really couldn't go to the bathroom and I was scared. I am a type two diabetic, I have high cholesterol, I have high blood pressure. And then I started getting caught feelings in my chest, and it felt like I was having a heart attack, and the anxiety was horrible, I didn't know what was going on. It also made me feel like I was having a stroke. I had a stroke in 2018 and I was constantly worried about it. Was I having another stroke was having a heart attack? I tried to get into my primary care doctor and they couldn't work me in. I knew something was wrong. Around Thanksgiving that cold feeling in my chest again and I called the ambulance and they took me to the hospital, thinking I was having a heart attack. They told me my heart was fine, I told him what the symptoms were and they never once suggested that I had gastrointestinal problems. And I don't know never check that. Then two weeks ago, I actually had another stroke and I spent almost 2 days in the emergency room , And I told him my symptoms and the whole time it was there I kept having that severe nausea, chest pain, cold feeling in my chest like it was having another stroke, and no one ever checked my gastrointestinal problems or suggested that I see a Gastro intestinal doctor I never made it to a room, spent the two days alone, in a bed in an emergency room full of a mixture of Covid patients, recovering Covid patients, and other emergencies that couldn't get out of there . Then my daughter, who has had Gastro surgery, suggested that maybe I had Gastro paresis and dumping syndrome, even though I've never had any stomach surgery at all. We started doing research, and I went to see a Gastro intestinal doctor. After I told all my symptoms, she said I think I know what's going on but we need to rule some things out first. The first thing she did was put me on a medication that would take care of my nausea, and it has, and I'm so blessed about that. And to modify my diet to be soft foods very mild, and I have been trying to do that. But I'm still starving, I want to taco, I want some spaghetti, toast. I cry because I have no clothes anymore it fit me , I gave 40 pairs of jeans to my daughter because they didn't fit me anymore. All I could wear thin pants and a baggy shirt. I have tests coming up to rule out any kind of blockage etc. but I am scared every single day because I still have a cold feeling in my chest, and sometimes it's so bad I want to call an ambulance, but I know that it's just the stupid stomach thing. I have an upper G.I. next week, but they can't do the gastric emptying test until February. But my G.I. person is going to treat me as if it was positive. I wish there were more support groups out there, to educate not only patients but medical staff to look for this condition. My husband is very supportive, but he does. Bear the brunt of my frustration, and he is so sweet and I feel so terrible about things that neither of us can control. I am still losing weight and I'm hopeful that the test will show what I have. But thank God the medication I'm taking has control , Controlled the nausea somewhat. I have no clothes to wear, and I don't wanna die. But there are days that you feel like that's what's going to happen I'm new to this and I don't know what else to do at this point in time. There are tons of books on Amazon, lots of things you can read, but until you're diagnosed you're just guessing. And you're trying to eat things that might fill you up, and then because you feel so sick i'm looking at the books, belching all day long, thinking I'm having a stroke all day long, and I know that there are other people out there that have more symptoms than I have and don't know what to do either. Any help out there for me? I will keep everyone posted about my test. But I'm hopeful, yet I still think every day I'm going to die. I have been overweight pretty much all my life and yes of course I wanted to lose weight, but not this way, not this way. I pray to God every day, for strength and hope and live another day.